This is exactly me. So much love for miranda. I wish season 4 would happen :(

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Eddie Redmayne, Hannah Bagshawe, and Miranda Hart in the Royal Box at Wimbledon - July 3, 2014

omg two of my favourite people.

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An Open Letter to Sam Pepper

lacigreen:

Hi Sam!

Thanks for taking the time to read this letter. As fellow YouTubers, we have much respect for others who put so much hard work into building their channel. It’s not easy, and you should be proud! That said, we’ve noticed that in your success, there has been a lack of respect in…

Not wearing ear plugs at gigs is like not wearing a seatbelt in the car or a helmet when cycling - you only realise the damage until it’s too late. I suffer from (horrendous) tinnitus from, even though the majority of the time I do, likely not wearing ear plugs at gigs. I remember going to gigs when I was younger and having ringing in my ears after and thinking it was part and parcel of the gig experience. If someone told me I would be going through this however many years ago I would have taken so much more care. Any of my friends who go to gigs on a regular basis please take the steps to protect your hearing. Some people can go their whole lives not wearing ear plugs and be absolutely fine, but it’s not worth the risk. More often than not, you’ll only notice damage is done when it’s too late.

If you think you may have tinnitus or are at risk of it, the British Tinnitus Association is brilliant - http://www.tinnitus.org.uk

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So I went back through my e-mails, and it turns out the tumblr blog I managed to delete was 5 years old this July. Makes me so sad! Alas, let’s make this one worthwhile…

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Considering I managed to delete my tumblr (way to go…) and I now have no one on here I know (except my sister) and no followers, I think this has given me good enough reason to whinge and complain about everything that’s going on with me at the moment.

I have severe, debilitating health anxiety. And it is fucking shit. I genuinely worry about EVERYTHING. Although 90% of my symptoms are likely a result of the anxiety itself, I still worry, and it’s to the point I think my Doctor is severely fed up of me. I currently have a vibrating foot (like feeling your pulse in your foot but with the emphasis of a phone vibration - incredibly annoying) and, after consulting good old ‘always reliable’ Dr Google, convinced myself I may have the beginnings of Neuropathy. This is after I’ve had twinges, jolts and ticks all over my body for the past couple of months which my doctor has reassured me is from anxiety. Now I’m borderline freaking out drawing the dots in my mind that everything is due to an issue with my nervous system. The most annoying part of this is at 3am this morning the vibration in my foot WOKE ME UP. Can it really be a symptom from anxiety if it can wake you up?

So today I’ve been dealing with my vibrating pulsating mobile phone foot trying to not freak. I’m sat at my desk, and I turned my head and felt my neck creak and crack. I’m super aware of everything going on in my head right now as I have intense tinnitus, plus an issue with my ears which initially was diagnosed as Eustachian Tube Dysfunction and now they’re not sure what it is so I’m going for an MRI… Tinnitus is the entire reason this all started and being able to hear it consistently is keeping me on edge. But the creaking and cracking of my neck… is that due to being tense? Is it arthritis of my joint connecting my head to my neck? Constantly in fear of hearing it again I don’t want to move my head, but now even if it makes the smallest noise (that I may have not even noticed before) as I’m listening/feeling out for a noise whatever happens is going to scare me. 

I’ve been referred to have CBT but god knows how long the waiting list is/will be. I desperately need help to feel even a fraction of OK. It’s gotten to the point where I feel so unbelievably helpless and just want my body back to normal. I know that no human body is perfect and everything has it’s flaws and differences, but bloody hell this is horrendous.

If anyone has even come across this point/read my ramblings can I get any words of assurance/advice?

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